That's kind of you, monsieur, but I'm afraid I don't understand or deserve your praise. I did nothing more than act as your companion in the walk out of that tower. If you owe anything to anyone, it's to the others who took part in that mission, all far braver and more useful than myself.
[ He isn't being humble. He's just deprecating and a little bit drunk 95% of the time, but let it never be said that he doesn't care. ]
[ For once, he cuts his negativity off there and takes a different approach. He isn’t so drunk that he can’t rein himself in, and Loras needs no more of it right now. What Grantaire heard that the hostages had been put through was absolutely harrowing. He can't mock or belittle it, and he certainly doesn’t want to make it any worse. ]
It’s not something that needs repaid. I enjoy the company of others without compensation.
Nightmares? I heard what measures they took to get you to speak.
It’s getting harder for Grantaire to reel in his negativity. He has to step away from the conversation for a drink. Going through something like that once is more than enough. He can’t imagine going through it twice. ]
Twice you’ve experienced such a thing. You say a man can't truly recover, but you carry on. You continue to live your life. Perhaps I'm prying deeply, but if you’ll grant me an answer, I wonder: How do you stand it? How do you manage it?
[ The reply is a bit delayed. Despite what the circumstances might suggest, Loras does not consider himself a strong person. ]
My sister was invaluable to me. Even in the most desperate of times, she always helped steer me in the right direction. And all of this helps, too. I'd wanted to shy away but I've found Wyver's offered me distraction and a chance to start again. People here are more gracious than they were back home.
[ Grantaire tends to surround himself with people who are stronger and more passionate than he is. Despite what Loras may think of himself, Grantaire thinks quite the opposite. ]
I have never had siblings. I was always the only child in my family. I do not recommend it, monsieur. Far too many expectations are placed upon the shoulders of one child when two children might have shared the load.
[ Like the expectation of being good at mathematics. ]
I imagine you miss her. I’ve found it difficult to seek out a distraction, though I know Wyver to be laden with them. I shouldn't blame the city. It's motivation I lack, in truth. You lack no motivation, if you've managed to carry on as you have.
Being a knight is all I know. The Knightryders is not exactly well like it, but it's near enough, and I can fight in tournaments again. There must be something that you can take up, surely?
I'm afraid I am a man of spectacularly few talents.
[ He is a man of many talents, but few of them that he actually has faith in. ]
I thought myself an artist once, but I was never more than mediocre. However, next time there's a tournament of some sort, I'll come to watch. I've ignored the Knightryders for far too long.
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[ He isn't being humble. He's just deprecating and a little bit drunk 95% of the time, but let it never be said that he doesn't care. ]
How are you feeling now?
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I find I'm tired, mostly. I haven't slept much since it all happened.
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[ For once, he cuts his negativity off there and takes a different approach. He isn’t so drunk that he can’t rein himself in, and Loras needs no more of it right now. What Grantaire heard that the hostages had been put through was absolutely harrowing. He can't mock or belittle it, and he certainly doesn’t want to make it any worse. ]
It’s not something that needs repaid. I enjoy the company of others without compensation.
Nightmares? I heard what measures they took to get you to speak.
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It’s getting harder for Grantaire to reel in his negativity. He has to step away from the conversation for a drink. Going through something like that once is more than enough. He can’t imagine going through it twice. ]
May I ask you something, monsieur?
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My sister was invaluable to me. Even in the most desperate of times, she always helped steer me in the right direction. And all of this helps, too. I'd wanted to shy away but I've found Wyver's offered me distraction and a chance to start again. People here are more gracious than they were back home.
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I have never had siblings. I was always the only child in my family. I do not recommend it, monsieur. Far too many expectations are placed upon the shoulders of one child when two children might have shared the load.
[ Like the expectation of being good at mathematics. ]
I imagine you miss her. I’ve found it difficult to seek out a distraction, though I know Wyver to be laden with them. I shouldn't blame the city. It's motivation I lack, in truth. You lack no motivation, if you've managed to carry on as you have.
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[ He is a man of many talents, but few of them that he actually has faith in. ]
I thought myself an artist once, but I was never more than mediocre. However, next time there's a tournament of some sort, I'll come to watch. I've ignored the Knightryders for far too long.
[ F R I E N D S H I P !!! ]